Holding On

What are you holding on to?

He asks so gently.

Apparently . . .

Everything.

And there's only One thing worth holding on to
One person.
The One.

Over and over
again and again

I realize,

I am not.

I’m holding on to:

My normal grocery trips

My daily routine - weekday or weekend

My plan for the days, the weeks, the months, and the year

My son's soccer games and school days

My daughter's college schedule and part-time work

And what WAS my job

Life being,

The way it used to be.

Is it worth it?

Holding on to that?

Whatever “that” is

Instead of Him?

Yet everywhere I turn,

Something else seems to be taken away

And I am painfully aware I was still holding on to
Something good, but still a misplaced fulfillment

Playing tennis with the family,

The courts now locked

Using our master bath upstairs,

A leak into the kitchen below

Lights in the kitchen unusable,

Temporary lighting moved to replace it

A wise soul (Dave Hollis) said, 

"When this is all over and we finally return to “normal” we need to decide what parts of normal are worth holding on to."

Well said.

But the deeper, more pressing question is

Who are you holding on to?

All of this

It's an annoyance.

There is a need to become un-annoyable,

To practice love
And be content in Jesus’ existence.

The only thing that I truly desire and hold on to is to remain, abiding in the light, every moment of every day, to experience His delight, to search out His spaciousness, for He lives in you and He lives in me. Psalm 27:4 (my personalization)